Chocolate Milk

Is it just me, or do some days just need to end with some chocolate milk?

How is everyone? I haven't blogged like normal, with good reason (at least I think so). My littlest foster baby went back to his bio family on Thursday and my heart was very broken. However, guess what? I LOST half a pound at Weight Watchers on Saturday. haha I really did not see that coming, considering I'm pretty sure I ate everything in my house. So YAY!

Beginning weight: 352.6

Current weight: 345.5

Total loss: -7.1 pounds

So let's talk about shopping. Who here loves shopping? I'll tell you the truth. I love shopping because I just want to buy stuff. However, clothes shopping isn't the kind of shopping I want to do. I hate it, LOATHE it. In fact, once upon a time, I was a manager at (I won't name names) a "plus-size ladies store". When I was hired, they send you to one of their other stores to train along side another manager. One of the things you had to do, and I completely understand, is to try on all kinds of their clothes and really get to know the way things fit and work and all that. I totally get it. However, being that they were a plus-sized women's store, you think they would be more sensitive to this fact. I will never forget the first day when they had me try on all different styles of jeans and none of them fit. NOT. ONE. And I cried in the dressing room when the lady had walked off to help someone. Ugh what a nightmare. That's how I feel just even walking into a store, like it is going to end in failure. Isn't that awful? I actually can't even remember a time when I could just walk into a store and feel confident. 

I've noticed that because of this, I don't ever feel like I look pretty, and I don't. Tonight I was wearing sweat pants and a duck dynasty shirt. Hair in a messy ponytail and no makeup. And that makes me so sad to think about, that I make no effort in my day-to-day. And that actually transfers quickly into my attitude about myself in general. And then I end up accusing my husband of not finding me attractive and then he just sits there like a deer in headlights because why am I saying that while he's trying to watch tv in peace? 

So this is going to be my next challenge, get dressed if I go anywhere outside of the house. (I mean obviously I get dressed, I mean not sweatpants and hair up) And if anyone knows me, I don't take selfies, because they drive me nuts, but I will do my best do try to take a selfie to show that this is my challenge this week! 

What things do you do to make yourself feel beautiful? Ways to boost your self esteem? Tell me!

Green Smoothies... Success!

Okay, I totally planned to get stuff to start making green smoothies earlier in the week, but I ended up not being able to do so until yesterday. I am going to be honest with you all, I used to roll my eyes at the people who would upload pictures to Facebook and be like "LOOK HOW HEALTHY I AM! *rolls around in pile of healthy food and green smoothies*" Because how rude for you to do that while I'm trying to shove this cake in my face, for real.

However, I have completely recognized that I do not eat veggies or fruits like I'm supposed to. I mean, I don't mind veggies....I just don't think about them, or feel like making them. And being a person who doesn't eat salad dressing (barf), salads are lost on me. I mean, would you just sit around eating some lettuce? (If you would, stop, it's weird.) So I decided I'd give this a try.

So we went to Costco and stocked up:

 And actually, the first thing we made was some orange sorbet last night!

It was delish and super easy: 2 oranges, 2 tablespoons of sugar, 3 cups of ice. SERIOUSLY. (I bet raspberries or strawberries would be fantastic too!)

Today for breakfast I had an orange & banana smoothie  and some oatmeal. I feel like I used too many oranges, so I would just use one next time and it would be perfect!

Lunch's smoothie was the BEST so far (I mean, I've only made two so do with that what you will)

Apple, Banana, PB smoothie:

1 red apple (minus core)

1 banana

1 tablespoon crunchy peanut butter

1 huge handful of spinach

1 cup of ice

Enjoy!

*Makes 2 mason jars full!*

(I also had veggie pasta with fat-free mozzarella cheese!)

I hope everyone can see from my 'recipe' how easy it is to make these and get your fruits and veggies in for the day! This was a total success and I can't wait to keep making more. (I'm doing them with Breakfast and Lunch)

And guess what else?? I weighed in on Saturday to 3 more pounds lost!

Beginning weight: 352.6

Current weight: 343.6

Total loss: -9 pounds

So tell me, what new healthy thing will you try this week?